Monday, March 2, 2009

Sorry Jill, I had to post it

I've been listening to this lovely Sarah Mclachlan compilation CD in the car whilst running errands, and going back and forth to Renaissance Academy. I sometimes feel like I'm spending half of my life driving to that school. And home again. And back to the school. It's always something. This week it's the Book Fair. But I digress...
Remember the song that Jessie, the cowgirl doll from Toy Story 2 sings? It's on this CD. The one that I'm listening to in the car whilst going back and forth to Renaissance a million times a day?
This particular song came on last Friday while Grace and I were coming home. I happened to glance in the rear-view mirror, only to see my baby's face drenched with tears. She's quietly sobbing.
"Grace! Are you hurt? What happened?"
"I miss Jillian! (sob)"
WHAT!!??? We're just driving home....what in the heck....
Grace says, "Change the song!"
Oh. Then I notice the words.

When somebody loved me, everything was beautiful
Every hour we spent together, lives within my heart
And when she was sad, I was there to dry her tears
And when she was happy, so was I, when she loved me.

Through the summer and the fall, we had each other, that was all
Just she and I together, like it was meant to be
And when she was lonely, I was there to comfort her
And I knew that she loved me.

So the years went by, I stayed the same
And she began to drift away, I was left alone
Still I waited for the day, when she'd say "I will always love you."

Lonely and forgotten, never thought she'd look my way,
She smiled at me and held me, just like she used to do,
Like she loved me, when she loved me

When somebody loved me, everything was beautiful,
Every hour we spent together, lives within my heart
When she loved me.

My heart just broke into a million tiny note shaped pieces. We came home and called Jill on the phone.
My baby is growing up though, isn't she? Listening to lyrics in a song and applying them to her life.
I had the same CD on today on the way home from school. The song came on again. I was sort of experimenting to see if it would have the same effect...and yep. Waterworks again. I quickly clicked over a couple of tracks to an African beat song, and she instantly perked up and laughed.
This is why it's so important to keep only good music in our homes (and cars!) Music can change everything in the blink of an eye.


Jillian said...

Great, now I'M crying. Thanks.
I miss her soooo much!! I'm so excited to come home this week!

Lilian said...

What a sweet story. Lots of songs can make me cry too. Sometimes I just let the music play when I need a good cry.