We had a Family Night about Prayer on Monday. As usual, I spend the time trying desperately to make sure Grace is learning the basics on her level while trying to engage the older kids who have "already- learned- this- a- thousand- times- I'm- so- bored."
So we're talking about prayer, and I suddenly remember being about 8 and a neighbor telling me the following: "You know you should NEVER kneel down to pray. Satan will know what you're doing and grab you from under the bed."
This was around the same time that my lovely siblings took it upon themselves to take me in a room, sit me down, and tell me that Santa Claus WAS NOT REAL. I remember acting all nonchalant with them and saying, "oh I know that!" When really a few minutes later I went into my own room reeling with my new-found knowledge and very upset that the world had conspired to lie to me repeatedly.
So when faced with yet another nugget of wisdom from an older person, I said "oh I know that" and went home HORRIFIED and UTTERLY TERRIFIED that Satan was going to grab me if I dared to pray. I would lay in bed, my arms clenched at my sides under the covers, eyes shut so tight tears would leak out, and pray silently in my head. All the while worrying that Satan would somehow hear me and get me.
Has anything like this ever happened to you?
7 months ago